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catastrophies) wrote2012-10-13 11:42 pm
catastrophies) wrote2012-10-13 11:42 pm
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Memory 1 - Game 2 [Sig-Neu]
∙ "I'm not scared at all."
Regained: Day 4, Dragon
Sharable: old treasure (wear it)[up to 1 IC day infinite]
So these three pages (starting from the last panel of the first page and ending on the first panel of the last page) are basically the references to the sort of memory that Cheshire has gotten back.
In short, it's all about how his mother would constantly check to make sure his bracelet of juzu beads were on his left wrist, how she would constantly try to reassure him that the Cat's original form (seen in the icon I posted with) wasn't what he was--it's just that he's cursed by the Cat, he's human, she loves him very much, she loves him so much she wants to keep him all to herself, she would die just for him...
Aaaas you can imagine, it is a memory full of psychological mess. As a child, Kyou didn't understand a lot of what was going on in his own household, but he was able to tell that a lot of what his mother said was just plain off. He wanted to believe her but the way this would be repeated, it was almost as if she was convincing herself, not him. Fruits Basket is a canon basically all about how kids understand a lot more than what adults would think of them, because they remember things, even things they don't understand, and it hurts them. While Kyou didn't understand the subtle stuff (the fact that his mother may have in fact loved him but was tormented by the fact that he was cursed and her own husband turning against her for their child turning out to be cursed by the Cat, etc etc... the effect of the opinions of others and the fear of others seeing the same thing, etc etc), he DID understand that the Cat's form was hideous, it was disgusting, it was nauseating and ugly and frightful and unnatural. He fully understood that his mother was lying through her teeth when she would say these things--he just didn't understand why. To him, it just seemed as though she hated him from the very start and just pretended to be a Good Mother the whole time--even if that may or may not have been the case.
So while this memory doesn't have the vehemency that the self-narrating blurbs do in response to the memories, they still largely apply.
Effects:
Cheshire will be terrified of this other form of his. He will be scared that others will find out about it and that, if he were to change into it, they would find him disgusting, a freak, and whatever else. He DOES know that people are more accepting of weird things in the Gallery but he's also aware of the kind of form it is. It smells like a rotting corpse. It's disproportional and weirdly angled and just plain unnatural. Combine that with the fact that he's cursed with the spirit of a Cat, and Cheshire just doesn't even know if he's really human or not. Do you count as human when you've lived your whole life with another entity inside of you? With more than one form? Especially one that requires he always wears the beads to keep from transforming?
So, largely, he will be very very very protective of his beads--so unless someone catches him by surprise or it's THAT BAD OF A COMPETITION, he'll keep them on and will guard them. He'll be checking his own wrist frequently, even, to make sure they haven't like fallen off or something.
Another thing that will change is that Cheshire will be far more likely to be found outside than inside. This is largely because he was kept inside a lot as a child! He does have some anxiety, such as if he's found outside when he's in a certain mood--there's an auto-assumption that he's in trouble for doing so! Though it's not as strong a reaction as it could be.
Finally, he will just be quieter and less likely to believe someone when they claim to like him or--god forbid--love him. They don't know him, after all. He doesn't even know himself. Not only that, but why would they even claim to like him unconditionally? That doesn't make sense at all. What reason is there?
Regained: Day 4, Dragon
Sharable: old treasure (wear it)
So these three pages (starting from the last panel of the first page and ending on the first panel of the last page) are basically the references to the sort of memory that Cheshire has gotten back.
In short, it's all about how his mother would constantly check to make sure his bracelet of juzu beads were on his left wrist, how she would constantly try to reassure him that the Cat's original form (seen in the icon I posted with) wasn't what he was--it's just that he's cursed by the Cat, he's human, she loves him very much, she loves him so much she wants to keep him all to herself, she would die just for him...
Aaaas you can imagine, it is a memory full of psychological mess. As a child, Kyou didn't understand a lot of what was going on in his own household, but he was able to tell that a lot of what his mother said was just plain off. He wanted to believe her but the way this would be repeated, it was almost as if she was convincing herself, not him. Fruits Basket is a canon basically all about how kids understand a lot more than what adults would think of them, because they remember things, even things they don't understand, and it hurts them. While Kyou didn't understand the subtle stuff (the fact that his mother may have in fact loved him but was tormented by the fact that he was cursed and her own husband turning against her for their child turning out to be cursed by the Cat, etc etc... the effect of the opinions of others and the fear of others seeing the same thing, etc etc), he DID understand that the Cat's form was hideous, it was disgusting, it was nauseating and ugly and frightful and unnatural. He fully understood that his mother was lying through her teeth when she would say these things--he just didn't understand why. To him, it just seemed as though she hated him from the very start and just pretended to be a Good Mother the whole time--even if that may or may not have been the case.
So while this memory doesn't have the vehemency that the self-narrating blurbs do in response to the memories, they still largely apply.
Effects:
Cheshire will be terrified of this other form of his. He will be scared that others will find out about it and that, if he were to change into it, they would find him disgusting, a freak, and whatever else. He DOES know that people are more accepting of weird things in the Gallery but he's also aware of the kind of form it is. It smells like a rotting corpse. It's disproportional and weirdly angled and just plain unnatural. Combine that with the fact that he's cursed with the spirit of a Cat, and Cheshire just doesn't even know if he's really human or not. Do you count as human when you've lived your whole life with another entity inside of you? With more than one form? Especially one that requires he always wears the beads to keep from transforming?
So, largely, he will be very very very protective of his beads--so unless someone catches him by surprise or it's THAT BAD OF A COMPETITION, he'll keep them on and will guard them. He'll be checking his own wrist frequently, even, to make sure they haven't like fallen off or something.
Another thing that will change is that Cheshire will be far more likely to be found outside than inside. This is largely because he was kept inside a lot as a child! He does have some anxiety, such as if he's found outside when he's in a certain mood--there's an auto-assumption that he's in trouble for doing so! Though it's not as strong a reaction as it could be.
Finally, he will just be quieter and less likely to believe someone when they claim to like him or--god forbid--love him. They don't know him, after all. He doesn't even know himself. Not only that, but why would they even claim to like him unconditionally? That doesn't make sense at all. What reason is there?